2020 was certainly a doozy of a year for I think everyone. I remember telling my husband on NYE that this was gonna be our year. Our marriage would thrive and not suffer like it had, I’d be a better mom to the kids and not be so on edge, we’d take more trips…etc. Yeah, that never happened. We didn’t get to go to California like we planned, our marriage has suffered more times than I’d like to admit and although I’ve tried to not let my anxiety and depression take hold when it comes to the kids, it has more times than I care to admit. And the biggest one we promised each other, we’d move out into our home certainly did not happen.
What did happen? My husband busted his butt through the pandemic working and the kids and I became true hermit crabs way more than we already were. Adylee developed anxiety over Covid and although she passed the second grade, it was rough doing online schooling for her. This year tested my mental health so much and within the past few months, we are just starting to get some sense of normalcy back.
Are there any positives you may ask? ABSOLUTELY!! I started my weight loss journey and lost 30 lbs so far. I struggle daily with this but I have some great accountability people in my life who help me get back on the train when I’ve fallen off and I fall off quite a bit. My depression and anxiety has the opposite effect on me than everyone else, I EAT. I eat my feelings but I’m learning to control that. Another amazing thing that happened is, I started blogging and content creating full time. I’ve always been a stay at home mom and was doing content creating an blogging just for fun but, this past July I was able to take it full time and now it’s my source of income. It’s been amazing being able to do what I love and have the opportunity to still stay home with my babies.
So, this year in review was hard SO HARD but yet also had some silver linings to it. I met new friends, gained a confidence in my social media presence and really was able to start tackling a goal I had put off for way too long. I’m hoping 2021 is just a smidge better for us all!
I’m right there with you! My depression and anxiety has gotten so bad but we’ve definitely had some good moments too!